I find that I enjoy writing when I'm in these moods. It helps me vent my frustration, and I like keeping a record of the events of my life. There's a thousand people outside my door being loud and annoying and pissing me off. EVery once in a while, there's a certain person who comes in here and talks to me and I really enjoy it. But everyone else who isn't that person, comes in here with these delusions in their head like "oh yea I'll just go hang out in Josh's room and talk to him for a while, it's ok, he likes me". No I fucking don't. Leave me the hell alone. All of you. Move out. Jump off a bridge. Do something other than be a part of my life. I wish i lived with less annoying people. I wish there were more loners in the world, like me. I wish people would realize that they don't HAVE to hang out over here every single night. It's not a requirement of being my friend. You can stay at home or go to someone else's house once or twice a week. I'd like you a lot better.

I'm thinking again. Thinking of someone who i haven't thought of in a while. I knew it wasn't gonna be that easy. I didn't even really want to stop. I just.......did. Ohhhhhhh how happy she makes me. One word is all I need. One drop of vocalization injected into my veins, I'm high for days, beautiful eyes set my mind ablaze. Holy shit, did i seriously just write that? Where did that come from? I'm weird. Or as some would say........"Josh....you're fucking emo as hell". Yea, I am. I'm also cute.

Let's make out.